Months pass in the blink of an eye

I don't even know how many months have gone by since I last wrote. A lot has happened in this amount of time however. I have been back to see Kristine and she told me that the reason I haven't met you yet is because of another man I've been involved with. That makes a lot of sense. I know I need to completely separate from him but it's difficult because he's my best friend. I saw Kristine a few months ago and she told me around March/April that things were going to fall into place for me. It's now April and I'm trying REALLY hard to stay positive. I'm working on buying a house. Actually, I put an offer in on one I was excited about just to find out another offer had already been made for over the asking price. Needless to say, the owners went with that one. It's sometimes rather difficult to not get discouraged with everything. One good thing to note however, I was hired an additional day during the week and have been full time since March 1, 2011. Not sure yet what will happen during the summer when my school contracts are finished but I've been picking up on some information which leads me to believe I'll have the option of working more than 3 days a week for the summer. *Fingers crossed*. Haleigh has her first boyfriend. It's really cute but I've been talking with her about her focus. I remember how exciting that was in high school and I want to help her to be able to have more time with him by making sure she's taking care of all her responsibilities and giving extra attention to Mom and Dad's trust. I probably didn't help matters for her given my high school history with boys. My hair is a lot longer since last summer when I chopped it all off. I can't wait for it to be long again! Hopefully I can keep it healthy and not have to take drastic measures again. I do have a whole lot of white hairs though! Hahahaha. It really doesn't bother me though. I got "the gene" from Mom and there really is no reason to be upset over it. I have some serious grow-out right now and it's funny cause it bothers everyone else more than it does me. Anyway, not sure if you really care about my hair! Hahaha. It's a girl thing, I know. I can't believe that summer is almost here again. I took all the dogs for a walk the other day and it actually felt like spring which was wonderful! I think I'm ready for some warmer weather. I opted out of the May Vegas trip this year. I didn't really have that good of a time last year because I wanted to make sure I was safe and couldn't trust anyone else to do it for me. On top of that, Stephanie and I are not close anymore. I'm not broken up over it though because I was starting to be resentful and I don't want that. Sometimes it's just better to let a friendship die out than put too much into it just to have it fail anyway. We still talk here and there but I'm pretty distant. OH! One important thing to mention, I don't drink anymore. I haven't had any alcohol in a week. It isn't much right now but I've made a conscious decision not to drink. Some specific events took place which influenced my decision but really I had been thinking about it for a long time. I really don't want my children growing up with a mom who drinks and I don't want that for you either! Why not experience life to the fullest? I don't need to alter my state of mind in order to enjoy life. Hmmmm, I wonder how you're going to take this information when I first tell you. I'll be curious to learn what your drinking habits are, if any. My good friend Shelby wanted to introduce me to her personal trainer, Jon. He seemed nice but I was afraid I'd corrupt the poor boy, haha. He's very Christian, does not drink, and is a virgin! None of that really bothers me, at all! I just don't think it's a fit. Where are you My Love? xoxo Katie

September end tomorrow...

I know I haven't written in a long time. I suppose it goes without saying but our paths have yet to cross. When I didn't meet you in August I decided to have another reading. Only this time I did a phone reading with students all over the country. I got the number from Shelby. Her dad went through the program and graduated. I found it really interesting but they weren't able to answer specific questions about you. However, they did tell me that I'm in the process of going through a change and that it would be better for me to meet you after that change has happened.

I know that's true. And yes, I have been doing a lot of changing lately, for the better. I've also been romantically involved with someone for some time and haven't been able to break it off. It started at the beginning of June and is still slightly lingering. I know that I need to sever it but I care for him deeply and truly want to stay friends. Making that transition however has posed some hardships. It was naive of me to think that if I broke it off with him for the month of August, everything would go as foreseen. I wasn't really able to do that anyway.

So, I'm getting there My Love! Our time has come. I want you and only you. I'm actually p leased for this delay because it has offered me the time needed to improve myself. I must also consider the idea that you haven't been ready for me as well. You have things in your life which are determining your outcomes. I have to believe we are now on the same frequency and but moments away from starting our happy, abundant lives together.

Once I have you in my arms I will hold tight and never let go...
XOXO

Where are you?

It's August 31st today and I'm yet to meet you. Where are you? I have a feeling that I know why we haven't met yet. My energy has been directed elsewhere. I am making a conscious effort to direct it back where it belongs. I know you aren't far away; I can feel it. I'm ready to start our life together. I wonder what may be going on with you now that may be causing us to be on separate wavelengths. I'm not trying to put blame on you, not at all! I just know that our energy is what will draw us together. Mine is seeking you. I hope yours is seeking me.

Close but no cigar...

So, last night Gordon Tubesing called and asked me to watch his dogs today. I've watched his dogs probably four times over the past year. It was just a day trip and he left the door unlocked for me because he was having his house painted and they needed to be able to use the bathroom. So, I get to this house this afternoon and I see a young, attractive man. Then as I go up to the house, another young, attractive man. I started thinking to myself, "Hey, this could be it. They work outside just like what Kristine told me..." BUT, after going home to clean up my arm from Copper scratching me (he was so excited to see me that he left a bloody scratch from my wrist to my elbow haha) I came back and went into the house to read. Before long I fell asleep and woke up to the sound of the painters leaving in their truck. I wasn't disappointed at all. I just knew that neither of them were You.

I've been reading The Secret. When Nate and I lived in Kenmore we watched the movie and got all psyched about it. Since then I kept telling myself that I was living by the "laws of attraction" but when I saw the book at Wal Mart I decided that I needed a refresher. I'm really glad I did. I'm really enjoying the book. It tells you that in order to attract what you want you have to combine your thoughts, feelings, and actions as though you have already received it. So, I've been giving thanks for finding you. According to the book, gratitude goes a long way and the Universe (or God, which is how I look at it) will recognize when you are thankful and bring you more things to be thankful for.

So, I'm thankful for You, my soul-mate who I have finally found and began my life with. I couldn't be more happy or in love!

Just around the corner

It's August 22nd and I know that our time to meet is closer than ever! I keep thinking about all the events I have planned this month. This coming Saturday, the 28th I'm helping Steph put on the golf tournament fundraiser for the girl's basketball team. Golf brings about lots of men so I'm thinking you may be there. Then we're going out to the casino afterward for the mechanical bull party. Hahaha, who knows, you might be there... Other than that, I imagine it will just happen sometime while I'm out and about, least expecting it. I'm really excited Sweetheart! I can't wait to be able to hold you in my arms and tell you happy I am that I've finally found you.

With all my heart,
Katie

Today could be the day!

I hope so! I'm off to embrace the day and hopefully run into you...

It's fiiiiiiinally here!!!

Today is August 1, 2010! I sure hope we meet sooner rather than later. I've been waiting for this month for what feels like an eternity. I have a couple things planned this month which I think may allow me to meet you but in all actuality, I have no idea when or where it will happen.

I hope we meet in a romantic way. Ideally we would be wandering down the sidewalk minding out own business and accidentally run into each. Chances of that... slim to nothing, I know. hahaha Really though, it doesn't matter much at all. The only important thing is that you and I both are just days away from the beginning of the rest of our lives.

I can't wait!

I love you so much already =-)