When you're right, you're right!

Something that Kindred said to me the night we broke up has been on my mind. Granted we only dated for four months but he said to me, "I just don't think you're ready for a long-term relationship". At the time I thought it was absolutely ridiculous. He'd actually said this to me before during an argument and I had called him out on his nonsense then. I'm not the type of girl to waste time dating and most definitely do not date more than one person at a time. My heart's desire is to share a romance with one person, and one person only.

When I asked him to explain himself and why he thinks such a thing, he couldn't. He said it was "just a feeling" which to me meant that he didn't really believe it at all. I told him that he is entitled to his opinion but that he was wrong. There are few people as committal as me and I don't need anyone to agree with me to know this. However, I learned a long time ago that sometimes in difficult or hurtful situations people have to form a reason for the place they find themselves. I think this was Kindred's way of putting the break-up back on me. In his mind it couldn't be the facts that he wasn't able to trust me though I was trustworthy, or that he threatened the end of our relationship as a means to lower my sense of security and put himself in emotional control, or that he got upset about little things which meant nothing until he turned the molehill into a mountain. For him the reason we broke up had to be that I wasn't ready for a "long-term" relationship.

Though I stand by confidence in what I know I want, I have to admit that he was right. He was absolutely right! I'm not looking for a long-term relationship. I'm looking for a marriage, a man I can see myself sharing my life, raising children, and growing old with. I had come to the understanding that Kindred is not this man and therefore I ended the relationship. Kindred was all about not wasting time and that's exactly why I did what I did, because I didn't want to waste anymore time building a long-term relationship that was destined to end.