A change of heart

I've made a decision today. I will no longer use this blog as a daily "journal" of sorts. The point of this blog is for me and my husband-to-be. I may not post everyday any more but instead will post when something relevant comes to be. I considered deleting some of the posts I've already written but have decided not to. Like most things, this blog has matured and grown over time. This decision is part of the journey and all the changes I will face along the way should be illustrated through the writings here. I really want to dedicate this writing to the man I will love my whole life and that is what my posts will pertain to from here on in.

I want to take this moment to apologize if any of the previous posts are...I can't really think of the right descriptive word. I just don't want anything written here to bring any bouts of pain, disappointment, or any other negative feeling from you. <-- another change. I've decided to write directly to you (my husband-to-be) because this blog is strictly for you and hidden from the eyes of anyone else.

Awhile back I was debating about sharing this blog with the world. I've realized that I don't want that. The purpose is for you and for me; for us. Someday I will show this to you. Obviously not at first because you'll think I'm some crazy crackpot who should be the one receiving counseling instead of giving it. However, in time I think you'll be able to appreciate this and I want more than anything for it to be something special for us.

I love you Sweetheart! Boy, it sure is strange to be saying "I love you" to someone I haven't even met but I know it's true. I've loved other men so I know what it feels like. The reason I feel comfortable saying it now is because our connection is that of God which can only mean that we will share a love greater than any I have experienced. I want you to know that I am completely devoted to you. You are all I need now and forever. You can trust me whole-heartedly and I promise to give you the same. I am soooo excited to begin our lives together! I just hope that we don't make too many people jealous of what we have =-)

XOXO