The point of no return

I can honestly say I feel really good about my decision with Kindred. Being with him those few times after the official break-up actually put my mind and feelings more to rest than anything. I think without that I would still being feeling anxious and having some feelings of desire for him. Being with him did feel nice but at the same time I remember thinking over and over while with him, "this isn't what I want". Now I have no questions or desire to be with him.

Remember how I talked about being worried that I would push off meeting "Him" because I was spending time with Kindred? Well, I think it may have actually done the opposite. You see, just knowing something is going to happen does not set it in stone. Each of us has the power to attract things towards us or push things away based on our thoughts, feelings, and actions. True, being with Kindred would contradict my finding my husband-to-be but now that I've done it I couldn't be more sure of my decision.

My Intuitive Life Coach told me I would be hearing from Kindred until about May at which time he would stop trying to be in my life. Now that things have happened the way they have I think it may be possible that this event has come much sooner. I have no intentions to stay in contact with Kindred at this point. I think that distance is what we need. He has not tried to contact me again since Saturday and I'm actually hoping this continues. Before I was secretly craving contact from him. This was most likely my ego needing reassurance that he still wanted me. Now that I know he did, my ego is satisfied and lined up with my thoughts, feelings, and actions.

So, if I attracted the event of Kindred halting contact, I may have also attracted meeting my husband-to-be to a sooner time as well. I'd like to think this is true. Patience...not really an easy virtue for me LOL. Of course, I'll wait as long as I have to. But, I definitely will not be going back to Kindred, for any romantic reason!