The danger zone?

I've been working on the birthday planning. S. has committed and so has a good friend of mine from the Kirkland area. I talked with my cousin who is south of Seattle and though she wasn't entirely sure, I'm going to say that she'll be coming too. She'd better cause she's leaving the country and I need time with her before she goes. Other than that I have another friend from this area who said she most likely will come. This is where it gets a little sticky. She dates a friend/co-worker of Kindred. She and I have hung out without the boys so I feel we have formed our own relationship so it isn't "weird" or anything. I told her to invite her friend Christine if she wants who also is associated with Kindred. On top of that I've invited Kindred's best friend's wife. I really like her and Kindred shared with me that she told him she would want to hang out with me even though Kindred and I weren't dating.

So, is this dangerous? We'll all be going out drinking at the casino. I usually end up meeting guys when I go out drinking at the casino. I just don't want any stories make their way back to Kindred which I'm sure they will because it's a small town and gossip is a favorite past time. However, one thing that will tone down the danger of flirting mixed with drinking is that my mom will be there. Of course, she'll probably leave before anyone else but that usually helps me stay in line a bit better.

I kind of make myself sound worse than I am. I don't think there's anything wrong with flirting especially since I never take it to the physical level. I guess I just don't want Kindred to have any reason to think or talk badly of me. He already doesn't like my "innocent" flirting so hearing it from others will only make his imagination run wild and cause him to think poorly of me. I know the relationship is over but I still don't want him to think of me in a negative light. I'd like it if we could stay on good terms and still respect one another. Not to mention that we both live in a small town and rumors and negativity have a way of spreading like wildfire.

Again, no use worrying. I have no idea who will actually be coming at this point and the whole point of the outing is to take advantage of the weekend birthday and have fun. I'll focus my energy in a positive manner and I'm sure everything will turn out better than I could have hoped.